My son has finally lost is fight against the bug that has been going around our home, and while we are all slowly on the mend, he is unfortunately in a miserable state.
Funny enough, this week was my week for tying up loose ends : I was going to bind a few mug rugs, I was going to quilt a small table topper I’ve been making for a friend. I wanted to finish knitting the bright orange wash cloth I promised my daughter weeks ago and my son’s scarf (which at this point will most likely be ready by mid-spring). I was also going to bake, clean, go take walks in the cold but radiant sunlight, finish my block-of-the-month block, my 13th Farmer’s Wife Quilt Block, catch up on my book club reading and the list goes on. But my poor honey has been taking 15 minute cat naps and coughing his little lungs out the remainder of his days, so mommy arms must mother and to the couch I’m mostly bound, the same couch I have been bound for the last 3 days.
And my To-Do list sits and stares…
But sitting there is very hard to do. Everything about our lives tells us that we must always be doing something. Relaxation is frowned upon, seen as procrastination, as laziness. How
can you accomplish something if you are doing nothing? And isn’t life about accomplishing, getting “it” done, whatever “it” is?
Then I read this post yesterday over at Mindfulbalance and it just struck a chord :
It’s really important to be careful and attentive to how much one gets swept up into the busyness. Those are two different things — actually doing something and the frantic, busy, scattered energy that you bring to the task. Try to watch and reflect on the feeling behind what you’re doing. What is the energy behind it? Recognize where the feeling of agitation comes from. So much depends upon staying with the breathing — breathing into the activity of what we’re doing. Sometimes it helps to step back and slow down, because often less gets accomplished the more frantic you become, in terms of actual physical accomplishment, as well as in your sense of enjoyment and harmony with others. Often it’s more the attitude that we carry that’s problematic because you can only do one thing at a time, anyway. We carry around in our minds all the things we think we have to do and that stirs up this frantic energy. So just breathe into what we are doing, be with it, not getting too swept up. Make the breath a force for settling.
Ajahn Pasanno, Breathe into busy activity
So here I am contemplating the question : Is fussing over everything I wanted to do this week causing the nervous energy that prevents me from just sitting down with my son? Is letting the guilt of goals not reached stopping me from realizing that I AM DOING SOMETHING? Something important, something that should, that IS, at the top of my to-do list which is to care for my son in his time of need. So with this I answer my own question :
How do you prepare of a day of not doing much? You breathe…
How do you all relax when you are filled with things you want to do? I would love for you to share!
Wishing you a peaceful day.