… that would sum up our week pretty easily.
When we got the news about our son’s hearing 2 weeks ago, we knew there would be a lot to do. But I never realized how much time was of the essence. I’m a researcher by nature, I’ve always loved knowing, being proactive, leaving no stone un-turned, that is me. But I’ll admit it, this time, knowing got overwhelming. There were feelings of guilt for not having had his hearing tested earlier, knowing I’ve lost precious time and now, he is much delayed in his speech acquisition. There were feelings of loyalty (and by consequence betrayal) while choosing if we would opt for LSQ (Quebec Sign Language) or ASL (American Sign Language). Choosing if your son will speak French or English with his hands is very stressful. I honestly didn’t know I would have to choose, thinking sign language was universal. That shows I much I know! Then there was getting in contact with groups in our area that help support kids with hearing loss to see about play groups and adapted activities to stimulate his language acquisition. Busy week right? But I did it all, got tons of info and even found a free online LSQ class. I was feeling pretty good about myself.
Then, just when I thought I had covered all my bases, it seems I’ll need to file some paperwork with my provincial and federal governments because we might be eligible for extra financial help through our Family Benefits. Did you know I might have to check the box asking me if I have a handicapped child under my care? That didn’t even occur to me. In my mind, my son isn’t handicapped. The mere thought of filling papers saying he is makes me a bit sick to my stomach. Not because I’m ashamed or because I can’t accept it. It’s mostly because that it is not how it feels to me, feels like I’m lying. But this might just be part of the learning curve and if they are anticipating me needing extra help, maybe I’ll just take a deep breath and print out the forms.
But for this week-end, we were done with all this…
We stayed close to home, a big storm taking up much of our Saturday night and Sunday throughout the day. We got a few inches of snow and a LOT of wind. But that all cleared up for our evening walk tonight and it was beautiful.
So I’m sorry if I disappeared this week, my time was just so counted and calculated. But we have made sure to plan our week so that free time will be more readily available this time around. Looking forward to sharing a few more of our “home things” in the next few days (seedlings and gluten-free cooking, oh my!) and getting back into a rhythm. I’ve become so dependent of my rhythm, I feel easily lost without it.
I want to thank all the wonderful people who have reached out with their knowledge, encouragement and experience in the last few weeks. Once again, it truly amazes me how generous and kindhearted this community is. ❤
Have a wonderful week everyone! xo