Tomorrow…

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… is the big day : Our in home evaluation with the speech therapist for Little Man. I’ve been trying to get a grips on my feelings about it all week and unfortunately, I’m still not quite sure. On one hand, I’m very excited! New tools and ways to get my little angel’s voice to sing. I’m looking forward to seeing him interact with someone else, to see how he will do (my son isn’t big on strangers) and I’m hoping that she sees in him great possibilities.

But there is a part of me that is scared… Scared that all these little quirks that we find so endearing, all those little strange ways he plays with his stuffies, that he eats his food, that he chews his hands when nervous, that he won’t play WITH other kids (instead plays AROUND other kids), that he won’t let anyone but us hold him, will raise flags. Flags that go way beyond being deaf. I know I don’t have to spell out the “A” word here, but it’s been on our minds. That is what has been hard to cope with this week. Funny enough, again, it’s not the prospect of the diagnosis, but the unknown.

We’ve also been running tests on his diet again. We’ve known for a very long time that he cannot have dairy in any form and we were fine with that. But he was still suffering from gastrointestinal distress more often than he should so we started eliminating things one at a time. We did soy for a few weeks without any real changes. Then we moved on to eggs, no changes again. Next was gluten and we are pretty sure we hit the jackpot. We are almost 30 days into an almost 100% gluten-free diet for him (we still use small quantities of organic spelt in some recipes) and suddenly he’s sleeping through the night almost every night, his skin has cleared up from almost all the rashes and eczema and he has calmed down quite a bit. He’s still all go-go-go, but he goes with a bit more focus now. And that is a nice change. But at the same time, it means more questions. So I’ve scheduled an appointment with our family doctor to ask to be referred to a pediatric GI specialist and get some food allergy tests done. I really think It’s time.

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But still, throughout the week there has been much light and fun : We went sugar-shacking with Little Miss’ preschool and the kiddos had lots of fun. As much as she loved the maple snow taffy, the horse-drawn buggy ride into the forest was the best. We watched Turkey Vultures hunt and saw snow geese flying North for summer. We listened to downy woodpeckers work away, collecting slow sluggish bugs from old rotting maple trees. It was a lovely morning treat.

We’ve been enjoying really warm weather this week, shedding layers and letting the sun warm our bodies and souls. We made bird feeders to hang around the yard, trying to bring in as many of our feathery friends in.

This week-end will be all about working on the gardens since all of them are almost completely thawed. We will be amending soil and planting cold hardy crops : That is right, the gardening season will officially start. What a grand adventure it always is.

But first let’s get through tomorrow… ā¤

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About Yanic A.

Hello to all of you and thank you for stopping by! My name is Yanic. I'm a wife to a wonderful husband, a mother of 2 beautifully complex and unique children and a lover of all things inspiring. Having started a personal journey of self discovery when I found out I was pregnant with my daughter 4 years ago, I've since embraced a daily life of simpler pleasures and gratitude. As we get to know each other, you will know me as a quilter, a gardener, a Tao cultivator, a vegetarian foodie, a true believer in a healthy family life as being the secret to my happiness and hopefully as time goes on, a friend... I will try to share with you my days as they unfold, speaking of my happy successes without censoring my challenges, trying to make this blog a true portrait of the ever-changing path that I have chosen for myself. I'm hoping to find in these pages others to share with and learn from, bringing to light the absolute connection in all things and people, showing this world as being a true community.
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30 Responses to Tomorrow…

  1. KerryCan says:

    You’re giving your kids wonderful experiences and every opportunity to be happy and healthy. Good luck tomorrow.

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  2. You’re doing all the right things, and the evaluation is only good news. Again, whatever the speech therapist tells you, you’re getting more information that can help him grow and thrive. Hugs…

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    • Yanic A. says:

      I agree, knowing is always better. And ever the dreaded A word ever is uttered, I know it will be mild. We will adjust and he will thrive. He couldn’t be more loved and we will accept him quirks an all. Our quirks make us who we are. And this will just be who he is. But I’m a “fretter”, so I just want to know, get the process rolling. xo Thank you for your kind words.

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  3. Lisa says:

    Good luck on the evaluation. Even if there is an additional diagnosis, there are resources out there that will help to guide your family on its journey.

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    • Yanic A. says:

      Thank you Lisa. We are pretty fortunate to have a nice system set up here for sure, there is just a bit of waiting time. But we’ve reached out to private resources that could take us on (if ever the case may be) until the public system calls. I love having free health care, but it does make for a bit of an over-crowded system sometimes. But that just means everyone is getting help equally.

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  4. I hope all goes well for you and yours. I think it is perfectly natural for children of his age to be wary of strangers, if the speech therapist is any good they should know that, they also don’t really play fully with other children until well over three in my experience anyway!

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    • Yanic A. says:

      Thank you for the encouragement. I think those parts don’t worry me as much as his fascination with strings and his biting himself when stressed. But I know they all might be just that, innocent quirks. I just know “autism” gets thrown around a LOT these days. I just really hope we have a kindred spirit in the therapist that took him on. Maybe I’m a little weary of strangers, who knows? LOL! Thank you again. I’ll keep you guys posted.

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  5. sally says:

    Good luck tomorrow, I hope you get a wonderful speech therapist, who’s really child friendly X

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  6. All the best to you tomorrow my friend, I will be thinking about you. Like Sustainablemom, a lot of the “quirks” are pretty normal for his age, but only time and assessment will give you concrete answers.

    Sending much love your way. xo

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  7. Chantal says:

    Will be thinking of you and the little man tomorrow sweetie!! You’re giving your kiddos everything they need to be wonderful human being, and they already are… that’s all that matters… Xoxo

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  8. Sending you much light and love and so much good energy! If you get the diagnosis that you have been thinking may be the case drop me a line. In my life before my girls I was a special education teacher and have worked extensively with kids on the spectrum. XO

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    • Yanic A. says:

      Thank you so much Shel. That is very generous of you. We surely won’t be getting a diagnosis tomorrow, but she will be the one to tell us if we should start the process. But I trust in her reputation and her expertise. If she feels this is a possibility, we will be starting as soon as possible. I will surely be reaching out. xox

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  9. Carlin says:

    Hope all goes well tomorrow and that you are holding up alright. On a side note, we have gone through all of the food issue/ testing/ diet stuff for years – so if you have any question, please don’t hesitate to ask. xo

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    • Yanic A. says:

      Thank you for the offer, I will surely take a few minutes to pick your brains about that. We are seeing a pediatric chiropractor that specializes in behavioral and cognitive delays at the end of the month that works a lot with diet recommendations and such. I’ve also been doing a lot of research on impaired immune functions and we have been slowly building a wonderful supplement regiment that he has been responding to very well. Any info you would want to share would be greatly appreciated. My email is ffff.blog_at_hotmail.com

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  10. barnraised says:

    Sending love your way. Keep us all posted!

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  11. Carie says:

    As tomorrow is now today I shall just say good look, and I hope you get a wonderful speech therapist!

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  12. good luck, I’ll be thinking of you and your visit, I think everything will be fine and all will go well šŸ™‚

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  13. erdhummel says:

    I hope yesterday was a good day – I certainly had my fingers crossed for you. But however it might turn out, having such supportive and loving parents is definitely the most important thing! I really admire your strong and positive way of dealing with the whole situation (although I know that there are probably moments where you don’t feel strong at all…). Best wishes from the other side of the ocean!!

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    • Yanic A. says:

      Thank you for your kind words. I’m just about to sit down and write a little post about it, it went wonderfully. We are all breathing a bit better today. xox

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  14. Tiffany says:

    Hey Yanic! I haven’t been up to date on blogs since Serafina’s autism diagnosis and struggling with the acceptance of that and all that life with autism brings. Life is still very busy! I just read that you have possible concerns with your little guy having autism. I want you to know that if he is or isn’t on the spectrum, if you ever want to chat to me about it, I am here for you! It is tough when there is that communication barrier, believe me, I know. Serafina is 3 1/2 now and still has no words. She used to have words and could sing and would want to communicate and then she slipped away before us. I know the fears and the feelings of sadness, fear, regret, guilt, and shame that come with having a child who is not developing “normally”. I know the feelings of confusion when you are unsure what is going on with your child.

    Just wanted to send you and your family a huge hug and to offer you any support that you might need from a friend who is willing to answer any questions or just be there to listen. Email me any time!

    Much Love!

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    • Yanic A. says:

      You are so sweet for reaching out and offering your friendship and support. I caught up on a few of your more recent posts, I’m sorry I didn’t know this was happening. I can’t even imagine how you feel. Happily, the speech therapist has put our fears to rest right now. She does not believe we are dealing with autism, only speech delay and a lot of quirks due to his deafness. But that doesn’t mean that won’t change later and it doesn’t mean I won’t reach out to you if ever I have questions. The blogging community has been such an amazing support center for me throughout this time, I feel so bless for having all of you in my life.

      Thank you for sharing your story and I do hope your waters get a little calmer soon. My thoughts are with you. xox

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  15. kathrynpagano says:

    I really love that you are optimistic even with all that is thrown at you. I hope all went well.

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    • Yanic A. says:

      It’s really all we can be right? I keep reminding myself that deaf isn’t sick… even if the diagnosis ever comes back as autism, autism isn’t sick. My son is healthy and happy, just a bit different. That is fine with us. šŸ™‚

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