And I really do mean it! I won’t lie, as upbeat and at peace as I was with everything that was thrown our way in 2015, starting new feels good.
I realize my post is very late. Most of you have shared your intentions, feelings and aspirations for 2016 earlier this week. But I honestly had to sit and think about it. As much as the idea of 2016 brings a warmth to my heart and soul, I just couldn’t sit down and make any intentions, no precise resolutions… It was like I still needed to find the words.
What was holding me back? I don’t know.
For a while, I wanted to make my new year intentions about my son’s progress and us turning the home into an “autism friendly YES space” for him to thrive without so many restrictions. And although we still mean to build, reorganize and simplify his space, it seemed like a lot of pressure on something that should after all remain fun for the whole family.
Then there was the thought of pushing our homestead even further : greenhouse, chickens, all around fencing… But honestly, the funds won’t be there this year. We still plan on planting blueberry bushes and raspberry canes on top of the two 4 ft X 16 ft hugelkulture beds my husband dug up last fall and fencing part of the yard to make it safer for Little Man, but the chickens, the coop, the greenhouse, they will have to wait.
Then I thought of continuing the purging process of our home. I went around trying to find more stuff I could give away, sell, get rid of. But I soon realized that we have reached, for now at least, pretty much the limit of decluttering. I still may find a book or small appliance here or there, but nothing that would make it a year-long intention.
And that it when it dawned on me.
The only thing in my life left to build up, shape up, reorganize, simplify, enhance, declutter was me.
I honestly have to thank a very good friend for turning me unto Mara Glatzel and a wonderful 7 day free e-course titled “The Tenacious Yes“. I invite you all to go check it out. The class is opened until January 31st.
Through her words, I realized quickly that I had literally run out of space for me in my own life. Would you believe that not so long ago, I actually spent 4 days without taking a bath or showering… I know, gross right? But I honestly could not find the time. By the time the day came to an end and the kids were in bed, I couldn’t go in because the pipes for the shower run in their walls and in our old house, it would most likely wake them up. So I spot washed with a wash cloth, tied my hair and went about my days. To this day, I don’t know why my husband did not tell me to sleep on the couch.
So here I am, ready to make my new year intention : I vow to myself to make a place for me in my life. Seems simple doesn’t it? Or maybe all of you know exactly what I’m talking about. What is my plan? I don’t know yet. I’m giving myself January to make one. I know I want to read more and read with purpose. Not just read 3 pages to dull my mind before bed. I know I want to shower everyday, that is an easy one LOL! I know I want to start journaling. I’ve been looking into starting a Bullet Journal that seems to me to be the perfect to-do journal for people who hate to-do lists. I also want to start my Yes Book (Day 6 of the e-course with Mara) and give my thoughts and ideas a “soft place to land” as she so beautifully puts it. I know I want to get back into shape. How that will happen has yet to be determined, but I do want to. I’m always told I don’t look my age and I really don’t want to feel it either. But right now, I do. I also know I want to spend more time in this space again. I miss it so.
I’m sure the plan will come to me in time, in the right time. Part of making a place for me in my life includes allowing myself the time to figure it out. I’m out of practice.
And with this I wish you all once more the happiest and most healthful, joyful of new years! May you all find a place for yourselves to be who you are, who you want to be.